I had to learn to pray. Life and anxiety have taught me to pray angry. How to pray with my jaw clenched.With questions stuck in my throat.With words that don’t sound holy at all.Because some nights the only prayer I have is Why, God?Why this?Why again?Why so much waiting?Why so much hard? There are moments…
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If I ever lost my memory I don’t think the first person I’d call is a doctor. I think I would call my best friend, because I have this feeling she would know exactly where to begin. She wouldn’t sit me down and tell me my birthday or where I grew up. She’d tell me…
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I think people misunderstand overthinkingThey assume it’s a lack of trustThat if I ask the same question twice it’s because I don’t believe youOr that if I need reassurance, it’s because your words weren’t enough the first timeBut that’s never really been it The truth is my mind has spent years trying to get ahead…
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Hannah cried until she couldn’t eat.Naomi came home and stated grief had emptied her.Martha looked Jesus in the face and told him she wished He had come sooner.Mary Magdalene stood outside the tomb weeping because she thought Jesus was gone. These weren’t women without faith.They were women whose faith had to live inside circumstances they…
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Imagine getting to heaven and hearing:I never confused your anxiety for unbelief Imagine getting to heaven and hearing:I never misunderstood your survival for spiritual failure. Imagine getting to heaven and hearing:I never asked you to pretend you were okay. Imagine getting to heaven and hearing:I never measured your faith by how happy you were. Imagine…
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