Being an overthinker feels like living in a house where the lights never turn off. Even at 2am the rooms in your mind stay lit. Each one echoing with what you should have said or what you could have done. Ringing with what might happen if you get it wrong again. You replay conversations like…
Read moreWomen/God/and the bible
I’ve noticed something in the bible that is interesting to me.So many men had to go find God. Moses had to climb the mountain.Jesus went into the wilderness for 40 days.David had to run, fight, bleed, and survive seasons that almost broke him. They had to go to Him.They had to separate.They had to retreat.They…
Read moreWhen the Blessing is Also a Battle
I feel the most alone I’ve ever felt in my life while pregnant, which makes no sense because I’m never actually alone. I have a whole life growing inside of me. Kicking. Moving. Depending on me for everything. Yet somehow, I still feel isolated in a way I can’t explain. Despite a supportive spouse and…
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My body remembers things my mind tries to forget The way my shoulders still climb towards my ears when I hear footsteps behind me The way my breath catches when someone raises their voice The way my stomach twists when I think about that specific night It’s strange how we expect healing to just be…
Read moreIt’s just heavy
I’ve been debilitated by a lot of feelings, but none have done it quite like anxiety has. Nothing has knocked me off my feet over and over again with that mighty of a force with no rhyme or reason all while being invisible to everyone else. And I can’t see it either, but oh I…
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