Dear Grandma, It has almost been five years since I have seen you. Five years since our last conversation. In some ways, it doesn’t feel like it has been that long. Most of the time though it does feel like that was a lifetime ago. In the five years since you left, I moved back…
Read moreThoughts with Koko-7/19/19
Most of our friends and family have tracked our foster care journey. We are so thankful for the collective “you.” In many ways, you have all been on this journey with us. Many from the beginning and many have joined at different points. You were excited with us when we brought cutie bug home and…
Read moreThoughts with Koko 7/10/19
The night before Little man’s court hearing was a fairly normal night. The boys went to sleep near on time and we went to bed early ourselves. Even though I was so tired, my mind was racing. Uncertainty is scary. Eventually I was able to fall asleep. I woke up to Little Man who was…
Read moreThoughts with Koko-6/30/19
Little man is a hand holder. It started when he was around 3-4 weeks old. I was feeding him and he grabbed my thumb. That first time I didn’t think anything of it. Soon this became his habit and he would hold the thumb of whoever was feeding him. His hand grew and now he…
Read moreThey Still Have My Heart
I don’t like feelings. Five months ago, two little humans left my home. It wasn’t the first time kids left and it won’t be the last. But, it was different. We took the twins with the intention of adopting. We were aware of past abuse and learned of past traumas. Life was not always easy,…
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