I don’t like feelings. Five months ago, two little humans left my home. It wasn’t the first time kids left and it won’t be the last. But, it was different. We took the twins with the intention of adopting. We were aware of past abuse and learned of past traumas. Life was not always easy,…
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A Letter to Little Man’s First Mom on Mothers Day
To Little Man’s Birth Mom, I’ve spent hours trying to figure out why you have made the choices you have made. I’ll be honest. Some days, I have been angry. I have been confused and frustrated. Other days, I work extremely hard to be full of compassion. It is not my right or job to…
Read moreI’m Not a Mom
The word “mom” is a hard one for me. No, it has nothing to do with my own mother. Out of all of my days on this Earth my mother has loved and supported me every single one of them. I am lucky that way. When I am called a mom though, I tend to…
Read moreJoyously Heartbroken
Little man’s journey took a huge change of direction yesterday at his most recent court hearing. While the path is still not straight it is now clearly marked. There is a light at the end of the path even if we can’t see it we at least know it is coming. The hearing got emotionally…
Read moreMurphy Crew Roster April 2019
Ryan and I have been fostering for about 15 months. While we are still fairly new to the game, we are also oddly seasoned because of the amount of kids we have had as placements. We have had seven placements of our own (which doesn’t count the six kids we took for respite, but still…
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