Life has been heavy lately. I love my job, but many days I feel like I’m a step or two behind. I absolutely hate feeling like I’m letting people down and at times I feel like I can’t keep up. I know that most of those feelings are self imposed and not from my peers….
Read moreQuitting Foster Care
If I admitted every single time I wanted to throw in the towel on being a foster parent, It would be insanely embarrassing. Simply put I know some people have the tolerance and patience of a saint and I am nothing like them. When a case is stagnant and it feels like no one cares that…
Read moreA note from November 2019
**This was written 11/14/2019. Ryan and I were in the midst of one of the hardest years of our lives from start to finish. I had not yet earned the title of “mom.” We had not yet felt the joy of adoption…and this time last year I didn’t think it was possible. November is national…
Read moreThoughts with Koko 11/1/20
I woke up today with a slight heaviness on my heart. I can’t quite put my finger on what exactly it is I’m worried about….everything I guess. It’s not super uncommon though. Foster parents spend so much time in a constant state of fear and anxiety. Foster care is beautiful and redeeming, but it is…
Read moreGotcha Day 10/19/18
Two years ago tomorrow (10/19/18), I was in our bedroom folding a mountain of laundry. The twins were at school and Ryan was working. It was a Friday. I was trying to finish up some tasks because that afternoon, we were having an 8 year old respite friend come for the weekend. Our family was…
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