My anxiety comes in waves. Much of the time I am fine. I don’t feel anxious and my brain is at normal speeds. Other times, my brain is so fast and I feel so panicked about anything and everything. The unpredictable timing of each is very hard and sometimes quite overwhelming. On the hardest days,…
Read moreThoughts with Koko-7/4/21 I’ve been hurt by the Church
I’ve been hurt by the church. I’ve been going to church since I was just a few days old. My parents served in their local church years before I was born. We grew up going to church every Sunday and most Wednesday nights. My dad led worship when I was very young, served with the…
Read moreThe Scariest Day of my Life
When I was 18, I spent the summer in New Delhi, India. That experience changed who I was as a person and I absolutely left pieces of my heart there. Near the end of our summer, our team leaders took us 250 miles north to the mountains. We stayed in a city called Shimla for…
Read moreA Letter to My Second Son on Adoption Day
To my sweet little son, Jonathan Michael. Jon. AKA “Jon Jon.” Today, I become your mama and you become my son forever and always. I remember the first time I laid eyes on you. We met you at the hospital. You were brought to us wrapped and swaddled in the cutest little green hat and…
Read moreThoughts with Koko 6/3/2021
On the brink of the adoption of our second son, I stop to reflect. Tripp’s adoption day in March of 2020 was the second best day of my life. Even in the midst of the shutdown, we made it amazing. While it didn’t drastically change our lives, it changed everything. I am more than ready…
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