College was awful. Middle school was dreadful, high school was hard, but college for this socially awkward anxious introvert was just awful. Don’t get me wrong. I had a great experience. I played soccer for three years and met pretty amazing friends along the way. I traveled to the other side of the world for…
Read moreThoughts with Koko-7/7/21
My anxiety comes in waves. Much of the time I am fine. I don’t feel anxious and my brain is at normal speeds. Other times, my brain is so fast and I feel so panicked about anything and everything. The unpredictable timing of each is very hard and sometimes quite overwhelming. On the hardest days,…
Read moreThoughts with Koko-7/4/21 I’ve been hurt by the Church
I’ve been hurt by the church. I’ve been going to church since I was just a few days old. My parents served in their local church years before I was born. We grew up going to church every Sunday and most Wednesday nights. My dad led worship when I was very young, served with the…
Read moreThe Scariest Day of my Life
When I was 18, I spent the summer in New Delhi, India. That experience changed who I was as a person and I absolutely left pieces of my heart there. Near the end of our summer, our team leaders took us 250 miles north to the mountains. We stayed in a city called Shimla for…
Read moreA Letter to My Second Son on Adoption Day
To my sweet little son, Jonathan Michael. Jon. AKA “Jon Jon.” Today, I become your mama and you become my son forever and always. I remember the first time I laid eyes on you. We met you at the hospital. You were brought to us wrapped and swaddled in the cutest little green hat and…
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